A God Thing

It’s a Slow Fade

I’m just gonna be real for a couple minutes if that’s okay. It’s hard to be a Christian. The hardest part for me isn’t even having faith through trials or not stressing about my future, but rather being consistent in how much time and quality I give the Lord every day.

Since I got saved in 2008, the enemy has figured out how to effectively remind me of everything under the sun I want to do during the day that never seems to include reading my Bible or praying. When I was still in school I would sometimes go an entire summer without touching my Bible outside of church. Sure I felt guilty about it, but obviously it wasn’t that important to me. Do you know what that does to a person? Our hearts and minds slowly start to rot, eventually to the point where we can’t even recognize God’s voice. And what’s scarier is that we get into the habit of not caring that we’re not in His presence. And then by the end of the summer I would go on my youth group’s annual retreat, I would surrender, and the Lord would inevitably draw me close to Him again. It was a vicious and miserable cycle.

Since that last summer though, my struggle with daily devotions has shifted somewhat. I no longer have a hard time picking up my Bible to read every day, which praise the Lord for that! But now I’m getting a little older, I have a steady job, and life is becoming faster and busier. And that means when I do read my Bible every day, that’s really all that happens sometimes. It becomes a checklist that I literally scratch off every day when I finish reading a passage. It is all too easy to fall into that routine when I work 80 hours in one week. When I come home I want to exercise, cook dinner, and spend the precious hours I have left of the day with my family. So what usually happens is I open my Bible, read a few chapters, put it on my nightstand, and go to sleep.

I will be the first to tell you that just because I’m “fitting” God into my schedule every day without fail, it does not mean I’m getting the necessary spiritual food I know I absolutely need to thrive in Christ. I feel so spiritually drained on the weeks I work, but when I get to my weeks off and set aside an unlimited amount of time with the Lord (not just ten minutes), He is faithful and draws me close. It’s like I can breathe again. And He reminds me every time that I need Him more than I think, and He will sustain me if I let Him.

It all boils down to a choice we have to make. What is our highest priority? And are we willing to lay down our desires every day to be with Him? If some of us are going to be in His presence for eternity one day, why not take advantage of that now? He’s right there waiting.

It’s tempting many days to think that I’m the only one who struggles so much with this, but with so many people in this family I know there must be some of you out there. And to you I say remain steadfast. It’s hard and it’s frustrating now, but if we intentionally focus on giving the Lord the best of our time and concentration, it will be worth it when we see Him face to face!

Luke 9:23 – “Then He said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me.”

1 thought on “It’s a Slow Fade

  1. This is exactly where I am at…this time it came with a rebuke first. But He was kind as He rebuked me and it is easier to remember He is a good Father now. 🙂 I love your blog – I can relate!

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